Pieces of Me

I've mentioned a few times lately how I've been a bit 'meh' about my blog of late. I know a lot of it has to do with where we're at just in life right now. Here I am, writing a blog called 'dusty country road', but back living in a regional town, with asphalt roads everywhere and no dust to be seen, only road grit and grease. At first it was easy to keep up the momentum with blogging, as we knew we were only in this place as a stopover to our next spot. But with no end date in sight, and no destination either for that matter, it started to feel like we were just - here. 

In a month of so we'll be moving into a new (to us) place - and is has dusty country road access. I like that. It also has sealed road access, and a view of a huge grain silo across the road. It has more space than we had before, and we talk about getting a pony. And you know, equines are social animals so it's best to have more than one, so maybe small horse for me. Ha! Like I have time to manage any more animals. But still, who knows. Maybe we will. And then I see photos on Think Big Live Simply of so much space devoted to growing vegetables and I start to dream of that too… 

I took a trip out to see the place recently, and on the drive back into town, had to stop for sheep on the road, being moved from one paddock to another. I haven't had to stop for sheep since we left our little old house almost a year ago. And I remembered that I like a slower pace of life. And I remembered that I like driving slower, I'm happier to sit on 80km than 100km. I'm happier when there is no rush. I'm hopeful that we can find a balance in this new place we've found - a slow, simple country life for us, but without the isolation we felt previously. I'm hopeful that we can find our community and feel truly 'at home'. 

And I can tell you, I'm glad we've done so much decluttering in the past few months. Our plan was always to spend time at this stopover house 'sorting things out' - getting rid of excess stuff, streamlining finances, paying off stubborn debts. We have certainly done a lot of that. So I start to look forward to a different life once again. Part of me is apprehensive about it - what if it's too hard? Too much work? There is much work to be done there, and we know already that it will take more than we think. Can we do it, and create the warm and welcoming family home we dream of? 

I hope so. I really, really, really hope so. I'm looking forward to sharing some images with you. In the mean time, I once again turn my thoughts to packing boxes and moving, and doing so with a toddler in tow now, rather than a little baby. And I know that our stopover house where we've spent the past 9 months will always have a place in my heart; it's the place where my baby turned into a toddler, and he has made this his home so well. So I guess there is a little sadness to say goodbye to here also. New beginnings and endings. Little pieces of me, right now. And my favourite photo, my little boy at the window.